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One of the greatest friends I’ve had through high school (not including my best friend. She’s awesome and has been through a lot with me and helped me with all of my family’s bullshit), I lost because of my dumb social anxieties and lack of knowledge about friendship. She was a sweet person. Overbearing, but sweet. We once watched pitch perfect with my mom, and the first vomit scene I almost lost my shit. She actually took notice, and warned me about the second one. When it came up, she told me to cover my ears, and literally put her hand over my eyes so I didn’t have to see or hear what was happening on the tv. She’s one of the very few people I’ve known who wouldn’t laugh at me or tell me to suck it up. She herself finds vomit scenes in movies hilarious, but tried her best to understand how much it hurt and scared me to see things like that. She did a lot for me other than this, but this has stuck with me. I guess that’s what friendship is about…accepting and helping the things that are sort of weird about your friends.


01 Aug 14 @ 5:59

My mom tells me not to look or listen when he chews with his mouth open and talks with it full. She tells me to just ignore it when as soon as I hear it I become hypersensitive to my surroundings and absolutely cannot ignore it. She tells me to just block it out when I’m already on the verge of walking out of the place to get away from the noise.
It’s so tempting to just pick up my butter knife and stab them both repeatedly in the ears so they understand how it hurts when they make such vulgar disgusting noises. It makes me physically ill to even hear the noises around me now, paper napkins, low, gurgle voices, pretty much any noise. Yet all I continue to do is sit here in pain, not saying a word to either of them not mocking or showing any signs of pain. But I am in pain. It hurts to hear, it hurts to watch it hurts to sit and do nothing.

It hurts, it hurts, it hurts..!


10 Jun 14 @ 12:26

>tries to watch a serious movie

>someone gets sick

>panic attack; ruins movie for mom

There should really be warnings put on movies because I panic literally every time I see someone getting sick. Thankfully I’m able to enjoy most movies because most people are awesome enough to tell me ahead of time about this stuff (shout out to gemsoil yo) but when you watch a new movie and it has no warning beforehand. yeah, let’s just say I’m still shaking.

I hate phobias.


08 Jun 14 @ 20:45

Don’t feel well enough to do much of anything. Don’t feel like I can trust a person I’ve trusted for so long. Was everything a lie? I shouldn’t be concerned with you. I should block you considering we haven’t spoken in so long. But, I still get jealous from time to time.

I still get jealous about little things that I shouldn’t be, if we had a relationship, it just happens. I’ll always have a place in my heart for each person I’ve been with.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m happily with the sweetest person I know… I just feel this jealousy though, and I don’t know why. Maybe I care too much for others, I’ll just… sit here and try not to cry as I remember the past and how much you’ve hurt me. How much time I wasted on you only because I couldn’t see past love. I couldn’t just move on like I had done in the past, because for a while, you made me happiest. but I was so blind to what you were doing. Thank you for cheating on me, making me feel jealous so many times. Making my life hell. Thank  you for pushing me into the arms of the person I’m with now. 

Just… I’m done with life rn.


05 Jun 14 @ 14:55

nico-di-angelcake:

  • DO NOT SPEAK TO ME IN A CONDESCENDING WAY
  • DO NOT SPEAK TO ME LIKE I’M AN IDIOT
  • DO NOT SPEAK TO ME AS IF I’M STUPID BECAUSE I DIDN’T KNOW ABOUT SOMETHING THAT YOU KNEW ABOUT OR BECAUSE I DIDN’T UNDERSTAND SOMETHING THAT’S SIMPLE FOR OTHER PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND
  • JUST DON’T DO IT

(Source: nicodiangelbabe)


04 Jun 14 @ 15:15 - 256,282 notes

I JUST WANT TO PEE GO AWAY YOU BIG BUG THING CREATURE


04 Jun 14 @ 3:09

THERE WAS A FUCKING CENTIPEDE IN THE BATHROOM AND IT CAME RUNNING AT ME


04 Jun 14 @ 2:58

Rlly not feeling like listening to this dick gumming his food and talking/mumbling all his god damn words it’s gone from wanting to kick him to wanting to chop his dick off, sew it back on, just to chop it off again. I can’t just simply leave the situation either, we’re in a fucking car, aimlessly wandering the roads. My mom refuses to drop him off and he has got to be the slowest either.
I feel fucking panicked, I want to yell, to scream at him to shut his fucking pig mouth because he sounds like a fucking buffalo. I seriously wish I had some form of headphones right now so I could not be so fucking anxious and pissed off.

Going to just crawl into bed when we get home cause nope. I’m done.


31 May 14 @ 12:46

I intentionally chew as loud as I can so I don’t get pissed off while people are eating around me.

Which reminds me, if this dude keeps chewing his food like he is I’m going to punch him in the face and kick his balls up to his stomach.


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toxicwinner:

what if tumblr didnt exist and i had to try find like minded people irl by casually bringing up my problems n seeing if they relate…….how’s it goin…love Ur top…u ever feel outside Ur body and scared..


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themajesticmountainscold:

maxolines:

sassy-spoon:

nerdbird:

Google is definitely a woman, it starts suggesting things before you can even finish your sentence.

That must mean Bing is a man, tries to convince people it’s superior and does a horrible job with pleasing its user.

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sassy-spoon lives up to its url


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